Pep Talk: So it didn’t work out the way you’d hoped. That’s awful, I don’t like it when you’re upset. As much as I want to punch everyone who ever underestimates or disappoints you, I know you don’t need me to. You’re strong and adaptable and I fully expect you to bounce back and move on to…
As we do with veterans, I would offer them a discount.” - Crocket Keller of Kellers Riverside Gun Store
I sold my Saturn to my friend Beth the other night. After we completed all of the paperwork and I gave her the keys, we sat and talked with her nine year old daughter. Her girl has had to cope with a lot of change in the last year, and is kind of lonely at school on top of it all. I got to tell her that she’s funny, kind, smart, and fun to hang out with.
The perceptions that we have as children can linger with us long into adulthood. The feeling that we’re unloved and unwanted often has strong roots in our childhood experiences, and as adults it’s tough to rid ourselves of that mentality or that feeling of emptiness. It can cause us to isolate ourselves, drink, take drugs, and stay in unhealthy relationships. I’ve done all of these.
I’ve walked through some of my more painful childhood memories over the past few months, and I’ve tried to see myself in a gentler light. It’s hard to let go of the things that I can’t change and to tell myself that I did the best that I could do at the time. It’s hard, but it’s worth it.
I have plenty of good people in my life, so I’ve decided that people can be in it and we can support and respect each other, or they can GTFO.
I just had a “I’m tired of your bullshit talk” with someone. Feels good, man. Feels good.
There’s such a thing as a holiday for a serotonin imbalance, right? Because there should be.